thoughts &
notes

Over the past few years, I have been on a side quest. My mission? To understand what has driven us humans to desiccate our planet and wreak havoc on each other. Just asking for a friend. What has driven us to kill off the most species since the meteor that killed the dinosaurs? Are the drivers innate to human nature? Are we kind when its visible but lack conscience when we can’t see the big-picture repercussions of our actions? Are there healthier cultures that have been able

August 19th, 2026 Big Pine Creek, California --------------- I’m sitting at a sturdy picnic table as I type this. Names and initials are chiseled into it, and a layer of thick brown paint covers all but the most recent inscriptions. I’m here taking a week’s vacation. The trip was launched with minimal planning- I just needed some time off after a 4 month marathon of planning a wedding, cancelling it, breaking up and moving. The nearby Sierras seemed like a good place to to li